Work

This is probly spend most of my time.... Working!

Work

This is probly spend most of my time.... Working!

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Sid's

Sitting at Sid's house, on Sid's sofa, watching Sid's TV and eating Sid's food.

What a waste of time!

Up early for work this morning... Got there.. not really late or any thing.. And no one is there? now this is a shit load of piss coz I literally have no money! nothing at all.. not even really enough to get back to work tomorrow now..

I bloody hate this job.. Cleaning windows. Its just so routine, I get up same time everyday do the same thing all day and go home.. and then next month... i do the exact same windows i did last month.. I'm just so board of it all ready there is no drive for me to get up for work in the morning.. its only because of the money that i mange to get out of bed and get to work.. I hate it..

Money has totally taken control of every thing I do... I have no time to spend doing what i want to do, what I need to do.. I'm so tired of struggling to do what I HAVE to do to just survive.

So now I'm at home.. got so much I need to do.. and in no mood to do any of it.

Woke up...

This is where I woke up this morning... I have been waking up here alot lately... as it is my girlfriends room. We only ever realy get to spend the evenings and nights together because were both so busy during the day... And even the time we do get time together, is interupted and seems rushed... Like there just ant enough time in the day. I wish i could spend more time with her but... This has got to be my favourt...

Mmm... Burger!

Out shooting my music video today. Stoped off at 'the sports cafe' on the hay market, london. Had the best burger i think i ever had in my life! Then washed it down with a bucket... Yes bucket of beer! Haven eaten that well im a while.

Favour for a friend!

I offered to transport a wardrobe for my friend Pia. From an ebay seller in Reading to her new flat in Kingston. Not really to far of a drive.

I drive a Citroen Saxo.. Not really a great car for transporting large items but I got a roof rack on it and though.. Yeah... It a be fine.. But we didn't have any rope or anything so we borrowed some ties form next door and made our way to reading..

Upon arrival the ebay sellers were giving us the funneyest looks like.. "So wheres this big van of yours?". I took a look at the Wardrobe then another look at my car... Emmmm.. Yeah were gona be able to get it on there! No problems... Sort of.

Him - "You havent really thought this through have you"
Me - "To be honest with you.. Im kinda still not even thinking about it"

With the wardrobe on the roof and the draws In the boot (well.. and back seats.. I never even relised they could be put down.) we set of to Kingston folowing the sat navs directions.. Witch even though we told to avoid main roads still had us on moterways the whole way there!

Every thing was running smothley. Had hazard light on the whole way, slowly creeping up to 50 down the moterway. But it was fine, nothing to strenuious... Then we came to some start stop traffic.. Kepped picking up speed then stopping, picking up speed stopping, picking up speed then CRASH! A dude stopped suddenly in front of me. With all the extra weight I couldn't stop in time and went strait in the back of him.

The guys car wasn't damaged at all, just a lil bump maybe. But my car was 2 inches shorter! I checked every thing over, car was running fine, no major damage so we continue with the jorney.
For the rest of the day the car was fine, nothing out of the ordinary..

We get the wardrobe to her new flat and get it in just fine. Were hanging out for a wile meeting her new flat mates and telling the story of the journey there.. And it was all good. Like the day was finaly over we can just go home and chill out till tomorow.. So we do..

I drop Pia off and then start making my way home. Now going 70 down the motorway middle lane.. Not got the wardrobe on any more and it feels good to be back up to speed.. then smack!! Like a snap the bonnet flew up and hit my windscreen... From the previous crash it wasn't fastened down properly.. So im now driving blind.. Cant see any thing but behind me and theres cars every where!...

Now I have absolutely no idea how I made it to the side of the road with out getting hit or hitting some one!... Last thing Remembre after the bonit hit the windscreen was sitting heart pounding at the side of the road while car honk their horns as the go speeding past...

Some times i think i just shouldnt drive...

Work sucks!

I hate having to work.. I didn't get up to work today because I couldn't sleep last night, so I couldn't get up in the morning, then woke up at 3.00pm, so the whole thing is just gona happen tomorrow.

Now I have no money!! I keep hitting this wall where I don't even have enough money to GET to work.. Ive borrowed money off of friends that I'm struggling to pay back, I got bills due, My mums not working so she keeps asking us for money. I'm not earning enough from this crappy job I'm working! and I know I could do better! I know I could make money out of my studio and writing music... so why aren't I?

Any way.. short post.. Im gona jump in a bath!

Im sick.

Iv been working all day. But still... Been a good one. I won 70 quid on the roulette! From a 5er i won playing poker. Lol!
I came home with over 100 quid after i got my wages.
So i got in and the suns blazing.... Got a bit of a tan:)... But now im sick.... :(

Sitting here still..i

...dont know what to say...

Its been a year.

One year... Were all here having a good time for you brother.

Hot summers day

Chilling in the garden after work. Suns out... Witch makes a change. Cant wait for friday but not looking forward to the weekend...

Got a new phone

Today i got the upgrade to my phone in the post. And i can blog from it! Woot! Haven had time to lately but now im mobile we can see if i can get on it. Short quick updates!

Crazy weekend.

Was looking for something to do Saturday night, calling round again just as the day before, with exactly the same results, no one seemed to be up for any thing. Just as I was about to give up the search and get on COD4 for the rest of the night, and a friend came online (i didn't have their number) and I thought it was worth a shoot to see what they were up to... Pub... Chalfont st.peter.. I'm there!!

So I go out, and its ok just average night out. Every ones messing around, talking, having a laugh... JESUS CHRIST!! My friend Sacha showed me this freaking lump thing she had on her wrist! like a gangaly or somthing.. she keeped making me poke it.. it was sick!..

After the pub every one was deciding what to do next, some people were going home, some people were going to the next pub, but couple of mates said about a party in Beaconsfield.. That's me right there! Pop back to me mates, pick some stuff up, drop some stuff off, get in the car and start driving... Now after a few turns I'm totally lost, I don't know the area at all I got both Ben and Luke trying to tell me directions, were going down thin winding country roads, at 60!! (Witch is actually the speed limit down these things!!)

I'm on a slight corner so I got the breaks on, slowing to about 45ish.. and its a really slight corner.. just keeps turning.. turning.. turning.. SUDDENLY!.. bloody right angle!.. I turn to account for the corner but I'm going to fast. I slam on the breaks!!...

Now one thing I've always said is "you know.. Ive always wanted to be in a car crash".. so I can relate.. I've heard so many story's from friends, and friends of friends, about crashes. But I felt I could never know exactly what it was like and how they must have felt... Now I do..

So I'm wedged between this tree and ditch, a little in shock, and I'm trying to relay to my self what had just happened... like maybe it didn't happen?.. what is going on?.. where am I?... OMG I'm in a tree!!.. OK shit.. now what? Luke and Ben get out the car to maybe see if we can push it out the ditch, and as they step out onto the road their feet sink into about 3inches of mud!.. so while I'm dry and clean in the drivers seat of my car, Luke and Ben are outside trying their hardest to push my car out from this wet slippy ditch... and to make it worse, as they are pushing, I'm reversing and spraying them with mud from the wheels...

We were never gona get that thing out.. we try calling every one we know to try to find some help.. some one to pull us out maybe?.. or even just a lift somewhere and then deal with it in the morning... My brother... you just have to love my brother! I call him up and strait away hes like "ill be right there". So were siting at the road side in the middle of nowhere, I have absolutely no idea where the hell we are and every thing is still slowly sinking in... Ben starts skinning up a joint... Now I'm not really a stoner (I used to be bout 3-4 years ago) but right then... That was exactly what I needed...

Still waiting around and getting rather stoned of this joint, the phone rings and its my brother asking for directions. I give the phone strait to Ben who know roughly where we are and he starts giving him the left and rights... To bad we were sending him in the wrong direction!... We finally get him on the road were on and we can here him beeping his horn like a mad man! we all jump to the side of the road... and he pull up in the tiniest car probably every made.. we take one look at my car... one look at his (well it was actually his girlfriend new car)... There is no way we are getting it out with that!.. haha!

Still.. he could give us a lift out of there and that was fine by all of us. We where all cold and wet, and just wanted to get some where warm and relax for a wile... to the party!.. Now what an entrance we made. Pulling up at nearly 5am bare foot (took our shoes off to get in the car) and totally caked in mud... But.. I couldn't really care less.. theres drink, weed, music, 4 walls and a ceiling over my head!.. lets get messy...

Every thing dies down... me and Luke are still up (about 8-9ish) and were chatting, chilling, blaze the last of the draw and decide to try get some sleep before this long (and I mean fucking long) trek we got ahead of us back to the car. I must have probably slept for about half an hour. I wake up to Luke scouring the room for a cigarette and with no luck we thought fuck it lets just go... So with no food or water we set out on a trek across the country side after a night drinking and smoking.

On our way out the house... there was some guy... asleep in a sleeping bag in the garden! not any one who was at the party.. and no one knew who the hell he was?.. To random for me at this time.. lets just leave him be... We set off down the road, walking at a rather slow but steady pace, and after only a few minutes... I'm already starting to feel the dehydration... My mouth is dry, my lips are cracking up, the sun is booming!! There is nothing as far as you can see in both directions. I keep hoping that form around the corner, a petrol station or shop maybe?... but nothing.. Every now and then we would pass a house (and these are some proper nice houses) and at one house we passed... the was a tap on the outside wall! I run over... quickly down as much water as I can and run back out...

Our next place to possibly stop for water is the Bellhouse hotel, but its still about an hour away, so we just keep walking on... now the Bellhouse hotel is a real posh place. 5star, marble floors, gold trim everything, people in and out with suits and briefcases... and here we are.. dressed in baggy jeans and t shirts, caked in mud, and smelling like drugs and alcohol... But I couldn't really care less... I need water, so I walk right in, to the bar.. "excuse me have you got any water"... The bar lady point to the side.. and theres a huge water cooler.. Jackpot!... With my thirst now well and truly quenched, I'm ready. Ready to get to my car and get it out that bloody ditch...

Were walking about maybe another hour before we finally reach the car. We get there and it dawns on us... we didn't really have a plan of what to do once we got here... the car is still stuck, were in no better situation that we was last night!?! I guess we can now see the damage (witch isn't as bad as I first thought) and there are gona be more cars going past in the day (and hopefully the will be willing to help).

First car drives past.. stops.. reverses up.. "you guys need any help?.. I got some rope in the back". What a stroke of luck! The guy pulls up behind the car, ties all the rope up and tows us out. I'm literally standing round feeling useless! but the car is out, and every one form the stream of cars (now building up round the corner) was out and helping push the car to the side of the road. The next guy gave us the jump with the engine, and then Luke!! the genius!.. starts pulling a load of stuff out my car!?.. a jack, spare wheel, wrench!?.. I didn't even know I had this stuff...

Chatting to the first guy that pulled up, he said he was a DJ.. I'm like "my brother is a DJ?"... They only bloody know each other!.. the where DJ on the same Pirate radio station for a while! what are the odds of that!

So here we are.. cars running fine.. got all 4 wheels on.. little bit of a dent up the front.. but Bloody hell!.. Were off!.. Stopping by a petrol station to double check every thing is ok (and it is!!) I get a phone call... "you still up for this BBQ?". I look at my self all muddy and stinking.. "emmm can i shower at yours?".. "yeah sure".. "then I'm there!". I drop Luke and his girl home, got to my friends, get washed up and go to this BBQ. Good food I tell you, and I'm so hungry! I just keep eating...

Chilling in the sun for a while and I start thinking about making a move home, I have been up and out for well over 36hours and am really starting to feel it... But then.. again with the phone!.. Its only bloody fathers day today! I head strait over pick my brother up and head to the meal (not really complaining... more food! lol.. mmmmmm). We have a curry in this Indian restaurant on Kingshill just round the corner from my dads, and again.. really good food, I am STUFFED!.. and sooo tired. Just a couple more hours and I can get home and get into bed...

... I don't... I get in and play COD4 till 8-9 in the morning and pass out with the control still in my hand.. But I got to say.. I woke up that morning (well afternoon) after having the best sleep I've probably had in a long time, and such an awesome weekend behind me!.. Such an ordeal, tired dirty and stressed but an adventure.. and its good to be home...

Some days are just better than others

Do people ever answer their phones?... I was up pretty late last night (about 6:30 am) and woke up pretty early on account of my phone going off!.. It was a friend asking if I wanted to cut their grass wile they were away on holiday for 10 quid... and I do... but any way.. So I pretty much spend most of the day trying to find something to do, sorting some stuff out around the house, this and that... then it dawned on me... OMG!.. Its bloody Friday!

Now I have to do something! Friday nights are the best part of the weekend (as long as you don't have to work or any thing on the Saturday.. and shit!!! working on Sunday!) because you'll have the next 2 days to recover from what ever craziness you get up to.

I'm going through my friends on in my phone, thinking of people I haven't seen in a while, people I'd like to hang out with, and calling them.. now none of them were answering their phones.. I end up calling pretty much every one in my phone book... EVERYONE!.. and still no answers, or even any replies?!? Do people not want to talk to me or what?

Eventually I start getting through to a couple of people.. though now its getting late, suns just starting to go in, and every one is either: "aw I dunno man *insert crappy excuse here* sorry" or "cant man busy". Now the second, as much as it sucks, I can understand, your busy, been busy, and are going to be busy.. that's cool.. but the people who are like.. no money, to far away, cant be bothered.. what's with that? I'm always hearing complaints about being bored, and I don't know about any one else but I would much rather be bored together than on my own.. Maybe its just me?..

Still calling round trying to get in contact with people.. I'm thinking... fuck it!.. I'm just gonna go out.. go skate park have a skate see who is there. So I give up the search for company and set out on my own.

I get to the skate park up in Watford.. and look who's there... Greg! one of the people i been trying to call all day. "what's up man.. hows it going? I been trying to call you all day"... "oh.. really?.. *checks phone*.. sorry man my phone has been on silent all day"... OK OK.. now silent is a good setting for if you like.. maybe at school, at work, or some where where you don't want to be disturbed.. Not when you out and about and people are trying to get hold of you!?!.. But I don't know, he could have had good reasons for it being silent (doubt it.. lol.. but he could have) and it was a good skate at the end of the day.

Again on the way home, calling every one see what their up to, do they want to hang out for a little wile?.. no.. Again no one answers their phones? I'm ready to give up trying... can all my friends really be that far away from their phones at the same time? apparently so...

Well.. I'm home now looks like another night in front of the Internet, on my own, staying up late and slowly killing my brain... What happened to the week? It started off on such a good foot. Weather was sunny, blue sky's and every one was about and up for some fun.... and now.... Dull and gray with nothing to do..

Not much more that a few words (yeah... right...)

Wasn't going to post today.. didn't really have much planed to say. But I thought I'd get on anyway.. at least give us something to do before I go to sleep... not that I'm tired?... because I should be... I was up last night (this was around 1:30am.. ish) trying to figure out how all this RSS and ATOM feed stuff works, and I get a phone call?... its a friend.. telling me she's home now and I can drop round that draw I picked up for her earlier that day.

So I'm making my way there.. and I swear!.. every time I'm on this route.. I get bushings with the police.. maybe I'm speeding a little, didn't slow for an orange light, forget to signal properly on a round about (not that ANYONE seem to really know what the hell they are doing on those things).. but please not today!.. not wile I'm carrying an 8th of freshly purchased hydroponic skunk, fresh pack of fags and fresh pack of rizla!... and I'm the paranoid type!..

On my way there.. its all good.. tbh not really as bad as I'm making it out to be... but then just as I'm getting into town... police car pulls out right behind me... I'm thinking shit there gonna pull me. Its nearly 2am, young guy, on his own.... and for ages they followed me!?.. Maybe they weren't following me?! as I said PARANOID... All the way through town the were behind me.. the whole time shitting bricks thinking "what am I gonna say if he pulls me.. Emma.. its not mine officer?"... because it ACTUALLY isn't!

As soon as I was out the other side of town.. the police car took a left when I went right.... So I was just making it all up in my head.... they went following me at all, they were never gonna pull me in the first place... but still you know what?... for those 20-30 mis they were behind me...
I don't think I've ever driven better in my life!

So I'm up all night round me mates house.. and their conk out.. after smoking a joint they were strait to sleep.. so all night I'm playing Grand Theft Auto4 on Xbox360 (witch is an awesome! game BTW), on my own! lol.. I think I must have fallen asleep about 8ish.. as i could here the world wakening up as I was drifting off.. so it was pretty early morning?.. or late morning?.. w/e

I wasn't worried... no one was up for work in the morning... Just have a good laying.. till lunch.. mmm.. lunch.. I was so hungry falling asleep! but any way... drifting off.. drifting off..... and as seems to be the running theme lately.. everything changes dramatically with a phone call.. shes got to go in to work.. so its all a mad rush around.. and before i had even shut my eyes.. I'm on my way home.. wide awake (overtired) and its 9:30 in the morning..

Best way to start any day really: spliff, no sleep, no food, and a looong ass drive home, only to find that when you get there.. you got 2 tone of stuff to do!... love it!

Tuesday and Technology

Not really that exciting of a day. Just hanging out it the sun all day.. well I say all day.. I didn't actually get up till 4 in the afternoon on account of me being up till around 8am the night before. I was up editing and posting a video for youtube.. and dam my laptop.. I spent hours figuring out how to edit this video trying to get it good enough to post and then literally as I'm converting it to a.. emm.. different video thingy in order to up load it.. my battery dies.. no warning.. went from about 20Min's - 0Min's in about a second.

I thought every thing would be OK just plug it in and carry on.. but no.. I plug it in, hit space bar and nothing. the battery was actually proper flat as a pancake! so I turn my computer on to find every thing gone.. the video clips, all the editing every thing. So I start again throw another video together ant pfft.. w/e it will do.. cant be bothered and to tired now to be picky.

Also another thing I would like to rant about while I'm ranting... My Internet connection!. For months its been messing me around. On and off when ever it pleases. It doesn't totally cut me off though.. just the broadband connection? and it always seems to do it at night? at around 10-12 at night. For ages Ive been struggling to figure it out.. everything seems to be in perfect working order? Its been sooo frustrating..

Then then earlier today it all became clear... Me and my sister were sitting up the table across from each other, laptops in front of us, head phones on, communicating with each other with IM's (I know... its that bad.. lol) and she got up left the room and went up stairs for a bit.. as soon as she was gone the connection cut out... I did the same thing I do every time.. shout and moan, click buttons, restart, unplug everything, plug it back in... and nothing.. until Amy come back in and sits down.. now with the phone in her hand.. she get on with what she was doing.. inter net is back every thing if working fine..

Now I'm thinking.. what I'm thinking I don't know.. just trying to think of something... the timing was to perfect to be coincidence?.. but what did she do? and why would she do what ever it is she did?.. was this just a little sister trying to annoy her older brother by disconnecting the Internet when shes not using it.. and doing it some how without involving the router?.. shes not that clever?? is she?..

No no no.. I'm being silly... it cant be her.. but what!? why for months has it been doing this.... the phone rings... my sister answers... the Internet cuts out... "hello... blah blah blah... OK byeee"... its back... THAT'S IT!!! the phone. I couldn't believe it so I tried it my self and sure enough it was the phone. Suddenly every thing made sense.. it was my sister.. but not intentionally to annoy me.. just it was a night she would be on the phone for hours at a time.. and it was hours at a time the connection would go.. I checked the phone upstairs for a filter.. no filter... Why oh WHY!? did i not think of this before...

A problem I've had for months! quickly and easily fixed.

What a strat to the week

Woke up about 10ish today, got some good sleep, witch is not usual for me.. but hey I'm not complaining... any way.. so yeah.. woke up to my phone running 110 times (didn't answer lol) witch was actually lucky as soon after I got up there was a huge van out side do deliver a sofa i had ordered.. like.. ages ago... but it was here!! finally! OMG though...

It was such a struggle to get this bloody sofa in the house!.. the guys they sent were probably the most useless guys they had on the staff.. and really couldn't be bothered with the job.. they took one look at the front door and said: "not gona fit through there mate"... witch was.. helpful... lol. What the hell am i supposed to do with it if i cant get it in the house?.. so they are there trying to get it through... and he was right... Its not gona fit through.. With the door on though!!

So i took the front door off... and the hallway door.. and then every door on the way to the studio (where it was staying) not that they took it that far!!.. they kinda got to the kitchen and gave up!.. leaving me and my little sister to get it the rest of the way in, witch was a task and a half.. the last door.. the studio door.. was 2 inches smaller than the others, and such a tight squeeze.. but.. after about 2 hours (ok ok we had breaks every 20 minutes but..) we finally got it in put it in to position and... you wont believe it... its a sofa bed see.. and... its all fine as a sofa.. but... as a bed.. it doesn't quite fit...!!!

Now thats just my luck.... but w/e.. its in there, and I'm sure I'll figure something out!.. but but.. if i can just explain.. i made all the measurements before I bought the sofa: hight, width and depth (for when its a sofa and when its a bed) but the measurements given for when its a bed were literally the bed AREA.. and not the bed area AND the rest of the sofa... so.. It cant really be said I'm that stupid.. can it?.. Im not.. am I?

After that ordeal was over with (not that i finished putting the other bits of the sofa on, cushions and such) It was so refreshing to get out in the sun and jump strait into my brand new 10ftx2ft inflatable pool! the water was freezing but.. OMG was it refreshing! the summer (for me at least) had officially started at that moment. There is nothing I love more in the summer than chilling in and around a pool. Getting out and just letting the sun dry you off... awesome!..

Hanging out for a while and my brother calls me to run him around a few places (he crashed his car into a roundabout.. goning to fast.. span out.. everyones ok) and then go fishing.

Now Ive never really fished before.. I fished a couple of times while I was in the states but not really actually just to fish.. like just had a go kinda thing.. so were there 4 of us (Ashley.. my brother, Tomsy and Adam.. brother friends) and none of us really know what were doing.. lol.. Tomsy is pretty much the only one who has a rough idea of what to do, so were all kinda just fart arsing about getting sorted and eventually... were fishing.. sort of..

I got to admit.. I was board.. really board.. nothing was happening.. just watching a floaty thing bobbing about in the water.. for ages, not really sure if I'm doing it wright and getting distracted by anything and every thing around me... and then!! crap crap crap!! a fish had bitten and was up for a fight!.. I'm actually struggling to get this fish in!.. Tomsy talking me through what to do.. I stat to get it closer.. and he got it in the net.. we pull it out the water and my brothers like "get hold of it and were take a picture".. so i take hold of the fish.. and it just freaks out!! slipped out my hands and.. and!!.. SLAPS me in the face with its tail and fall back it to lake.. sayin a big F you as it swims away.. What a cheeky lil (well not lil.. it was actually massive... seriously... huge!) fish!

The day continued and we all caught at least a couple of fish each... except my brother.. who didn't catch any.. lol.. Tomsy caught like a friking shark!!! and all in all.. i would say a successful days fishing (not that i know what a successful day fishing is considering this was my first day).

Driving home with my brother.. I though to my self.. "you know what I haven't had in ages.... a 99 flake Ice cream.. you know the ones from the machine things... soft ice cream... with nuts and chocolate sauce"... and shortly after thinking it (like 4 corner 2 traffic lights.. not long ones.. like you get to them and they go green kinda thing) there it was.. the Mr whippy Ice cream van.. the same Mr whippy Ice cream van i used to get my ice creams from when i was a kid!! Stop the car.. stop the van... tuck in..

now mondays are usualy the least populer of the days of the week.. but this one.. defonatly.. started the week of on the right foot..

[My apologies for the lack of photos at the moment I don't have a digital camera but my brother got some ill get him to send me some and update this post.. and.. hopefully get a digital camrea soon as]

My first blog.

So I been spending way to much time on the Internet lately, you could probably even say I'm addicted, but hey. I seen a load of peoples blogs on my Internet travels and thought I'd start up my own. Probably just posting up what I've been doing, ideas, and the other.. usual... blog things.

so ill keep this first post short and sweet.. and i guess were see how it goes.